Tonight I got to see one of my favorite bands, made up of some of my favorite people, play their last show to a crowd that I’m not sure knew exactly what they were witnessing. It was fitting that they ended like this. Short, fast, and to the point, their life as a band mirrored the way that they…
I loved this band and I love my friends.
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I hope to have some stories for you guys soon, if anyone cares.
I wish I could just write a freaking story for you guys. But I’m so displaced for the time being. And nothing I do seems to be working.
What comes to mind when you hear the term straight edge? Maybe you think of Minor Threat, or Fuck Shit Up, or Have Heart, or maybe you have no idea what it even is. The term has seen its glory days and its dark days alike. I’m writing this becasue I want to bring positive mindsets from those who are edge and also those who are not.
I confess, I’ve done things in my past that I am not exactly proud of; nevertheless, I am grateful that I did because that is what lead me to where I am today. I claimed edge and I promised to myself not to drink, smoke, do drugs for life and not to have sex until I’m married. It makes me feel so alive, you guys. Unfortunately, I see views and opinions of others that dissapoint me in many ways.
I see so many kids today eager to claim edge. That’s great. But there are a few questions that need to be asked:
There’s nothing wrong with being edge. It’s cool not to be edge too. Are you doing it just because your friends are, or because you’re pressured into it? That shouldn’t happen. The biggest thing that people fail to understand is that Straight Edge is not a lifestyle, it’s not movement. People seem not to realize that Straight Edge is just a title. That’s it. I feel like a lot of people blow it up to be something different and that’s why there is so much passion / apathy for it. What needs to be understoond by edge and non-edge alike is that all it does is give a name to your morals. That’s all. This is how I look at it and I want you to look at it this way too: I don’t choose not to drink because I’m straight edge; I’m straight edge because I choose not to drink. This leads me to my next point. sXe friends and those who are thinking about claiming, are you not drinking or smoking because you want to be straight or because you just don’t want to drink or smoke? Are you nervous that you might break edge in a moment of weakness? Those are important questions that you need to ask yourself, because that will tell you what you are really in it for.
To my edge friends - if someone decides to break edge, I don’t want to hear anything about “breaking trust” or any of that crap. I’m so sick of it. If someone doesn’t want to be edge, then don’t force them to be. It’s their life, let them choose how they want to live it. Be accepting because they are still the same person, the only thing that is different is the title they choose to live under. They needed to try something out and that brought them where they need to be. Also, people that say “I’m more edge than you are” or “You’re edge isn’t as straight as mine”, what the heck does that not even mean? We’re all on the same team so shut up and stop acting so high and mighty, because you’re not. It’s just proving to others how low and foolish of a person you can be. We all need to be accepting. We need more positive sXe. This brings me to my final point.
Listen up, my friends. Whether you are edge or not, choosing not to drink or do drugs does not establish any hierarchy whatsoever. A have edge friends and I have friends that aren’t. I don’t like my edge friends anymore than the other kids just because they don’t drink or smoke. What matters is inside. If one group is proclaiming that they are better than the other just because of the things they engage in (or don’t), that says a lot about character and that’s how how I determine good people. If you’re not edge, don’t laugh at another because they’re straight edge because what does that say about you? If you’re edge, don’t judge anybody ever just because they choose to have alcohol or smoke. SO many people think that this title comes along with this sense of better-being. We all need to be accepting of one another. In our flaws and in our strengths.
To sum up: I love the straight edge, and I just want a more positive name for it. I want people to hear straight edge and think “that’s cool” whether they’re edge or not. And I want people to hear about drinking or smoking and think “that’s cool” whether they’re edge or not. We all need to be accepting of one another and not so judgemental all the time. Because at the end of the day, we’re all just trying to get by. Thank you for reading this. Happy edge day, my friends.
Love,
xColinCubrx
And each morning she wakes
With a dream to describe
Something lovely that bloomed
From her beautiful mind
I said “I’ll trade you one
For two nightmares of mine
I have some where I die
I have some where we all die”
I’m breaking my depressive motif to show you how awesome this is. You’re welcome.
(Source: jayrenaissance)
The argument for consciousness
The instinct of the blind insect
Who never thinks not to accept its fate, that’s faith
There’s happiness in death
You give to the next one
You give to the next on down the line
Sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise, sunset.
Swiftly go the days.
Sunrise, sunset.
You wake up, then you undress.
It always is the same.
The sunrise and the sunsets.
You are lying while you confess, keep trying to explain.
The sunrise and the sunsets
You realize then you forget what you’ve been trying to retain.
But everybody knows that it is all about the things
That get stuck inside of your head,
Like the songs your roommate sings
Or a vision of her body as she stretches out on your bed.
She raised her hands in the air, asked you,
When was the last time you looked in the mirror?
Cause you’ve changed.
Yeah, you’ve changed.
Sunrises, sunsets.
You’re hopeful then you regret.
The circle never breaks.
With a sunrise and a sunset there’s a change of heart or address.
Is there nothing that remains?
For a sunrise or a sunset.
You’re manic or you’re depressed.
Will you ever feel ok?
For a sunrise or a sunset, your lover is an actress.
Did you really think she’d stay?
For a sunrise or a sunset.
You’re either coming or you just left but you’re always on the way.
Towards a sunrise or a sunset, a scribble or a sonnet.
They are really just the same.
To the sunrise and the sunset.
The master and his servant have exactly the same fate.
It’s a sunrise and a sunset.
From a cradle to a casket.
There is no way to escape.
The sunrise and the sunset.
Hold your sadness like a puppet, keep putting on the play.
But everything you do is leading to the point
Where you just won’t know what to do.
And at that moment you may laugh
But there is someone there who will be laughing louder than you.
So it’s true, the trick is complete.
Become everything you said you never would be.
You’re a fool! You’re a fool!
Sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset.
Sunrise and the sunsets.
Sunrise, sunset, sunrises, sunsets.
Sunrise and the sunsets.
Sunrise, sunset.
Go home to your apartment
And put the cassette in the tape deck and let that fever play.
Sunrise, sunset.
Where are you Arienette?
My name is Colin Cubr.
Christian.
Straight Edge.
Annoying.
Out of Step.
